i need to make a move

huhuhu..my 3rd entry for today...

i just had a talk with YL.. one of my close colleague here..yeah, kitorg sekepala..heard that among us(my group yg ade 6 orang jer nih) banyak nak resign.. arghhh i should make a move starting from now..

JM - already left us early january WS - have an interview with A***** this week YL - working on internal transfer to another dept, kalo x dpt, resign to other company CL - fed up with management but yet to move her steps being me..hehehe will make a move after my short vacation in J****.. sbb takut nnti diorg call, out of country pulak..so, better do it after my short break..

YL just made me heads up.. what if i still not getting any job by mid year.. My solution will be.. i'll be throwing my letter by end of April (two months notice) and pack all my bags to KL.. will spend my time with family and start to run here and there for a job, yeahh, maybe jobless for a month or two or worst more than that..

arghhhh..headache..wat should i do??

MR..my everything

muahahahaha..

tetibe aku rase macam nak menulis lagik..

to be frank, aku dah x sabor nak balik KL, seriously..i missed my life there, my frens, etcetcetc.. nak kira aku ni gile enjoy tu x ler jugak.. aku x penah gi clubbing pun, and mmg takkan jejak kaki pun la, lepak tetiap malam tu tak jugak, kaki wayang gegiller tu tak jugak..ermm

i just feel like....something is yet complete in my life..sedihnya!

maybe gak sebab my dearly besfren, MR kt KL kot..yeah, i miss her a lot every single second in my life!

MR... is my other half.. i have known her since my secondary school.. mase lower form, aku giller benci die, sbb die sombong giller babi nak mampush..hahaha..die kawan pun ngn anak org kaya, anak dato'.... and MR quite famous among seniors to be adik angkat aka budak2 glamour la ni.. and my dormmate, D at that time is one of RM's close frens..so aku tahu la cite pasal MR ni..according to MR, die rase aku sombong, sbb ade akak kt situ, real sister, KT which was in Form 4 at that time..oh ya, RM was under same roof as me, lain level jer....

after 3 years of knowing each other for the sake of formmates.. aku start kenal MR.. that was Form 4 when MR, start suka datang kelas aku since my class was at GF, and one of her good fren, S was sitting at the of me. MR suka buat2 citer jongos die, and she made me laughs.. hehehe

since MR and me in a same building, we then be in one group..konon group study la ni which ended up, makan jer yg lebih pastu tidor..hahaha..and six of us (MR, D, Z, E, N and me) in such a small room..all good memories...

until one day, i became too close with MR, I teach her Add Math (which was my feveret subject, I rather do Add Math exercise than doing other homework..giller betul aku time tu).. Masa nak abes SPM tu, sume orang dah bercita-cita tinggi.. E nak amik medik, so of course die kena masuk matriks. N nak amik Architecture, die nak masuk UTM. D and Z nak masuk MMU. While MR and me, decided nak masuk same uni.. And Alhamdullilah, sumenya tercapai..tho at first, MR application to uni was unsuccessful. tp lepas all those rayuan n etc, die berjaya.

then, we r so close to each other, became a housemate for almost 6 years being together during good and bad times.. yahh, she is my everything.. she is a shoulder to cry on, a face to smile with, a heart with share all, a place i can release my mood..she knows me well in and out, even a problems that nobody else knows..

i still remember the day MR begged me, to think of my decision to work here..yah, i still remember.. i wouldn't say i regretted with my decision as i learned a lot here but it didnt turn up as what i want it to be..so i decided to make a restart of my life, another chapter of me in KL soon..probably by mid of this year

and MR, i dedicate this special song for you..someday hopefully u will find this blog..

D.E.S.T.I.N.Y

What if I never knew... What if I never found you... I'd never have this feeling in my heart... How did this come to be?... I don't know how you found me... But from the moment I saw you... Deep inside my heart I knew... Baby you're my destiny... You and I were meant to be... With all my heart and soul... I'd give my love to have and hold... And as far as I can see... You were always meant to be... My destiny... I wanted someone like you... Someone that I could hold on to... And give my love until the end of time... But forever was just a word just a word... Something I'd only heard about... But now you're always there for me... When you say forever I believe... Baby you're my destiny... You and I were meant to be... With all my heart and soul... I'd give my love to have and hold... And as far as I can see... You were always meant to be... My destiny... Ohhhh... Maybe all we need is just a little faith... 'Cause baby I believe... That love will find a way!... Baby you're my destiny... You and I were meant to be... With all my heart and soul... I'd give my love to have and hold... And as far as I can see... From now until eternity... You were always meant to be... My destiny...You're my destiny... ahhh..yea..yeaa...

and MR, I really miss you, I really love u! wait for me, I'll be back by ur side.

dan inilah jumaat......

hahaha...

aku dan aku dan aku...

giller malas nak keje ari ni..knowing that my fren nak datang petang ni (harap2 ler die dapat tiket).. mcm2 plan dah ade kt dlm kepala aku.. hahaha.. walhal keje menimbun nih

*sigh*

self-assessment final write-up tak hantar lagik kt miki (bukan nama sebenar boss ku).. interface test banyak lagik tak up, asyik fail memanjang.. haih..mati ler aku mcm gini.. xde increment la aku tahun ni

ari ni ade citer lawak..

hahaha..actually ari ni birthday mini (bukan nama sebenar team lead ku).. kitorg (hahaha, actually just 3 of us, CL and YL) mmg x nak celebrate birthday die.. so kitorg pretending like we are not even know it at all..giller bodoh =P .. padahal another colleague, si mimi (bukan nama sebenar jugak) dah beberape kali tanya aku ngn CL, "do u have any plan for this fri?" ..two of us, just buat muka 1cent.. hahaha..lantak ko lah mimi..

sooo, kitorg x nak ler nampak sesgt berpakat... so we did the brainstorming, cari idea (ceh!giller tak la kan), CL decided nak gi hospital..poyo giller minah ni.. YL said, die dah mmg janji ngn LE nak gi makan ape bende ntah kt seberang sana.. then yoohoooooo.. left me alone here.. aku pon sure lah tak nak gi kan.. so i decided to put communitor as 'away' after 11am nnti..keskeskes..pergi mampus la ko mini..

oh? nape kitorg buat mcm gini? ooo..panjang citer nya.. nnti ler..akan ku coretkan dalam warkah ini.. tapi bukan ari ni la.. entry untuk mini kena amik one whole day.. giler panjang citenya.. conclusion die satu jer la, he's one of the reasons i decided to leave this job, which i kindda loake it so much if not to bits..tapi takkan la aku nak cakap mcm gitu kan masa leaving interview.. haa, giler bengong company ni, nak masuk kena interview, nak kuar pun kena interview.. opsss, ke sume company pun macam gitu?? tak tau la aku.. sbb ni first job aku lepas abes belajor.. opkos ler reason aku; nak balik KL, to be with family n etcetcetc..kakaaaa..

ermmm..

dah almost 2 years, aku kat sini.. di negeri yang x pernah aku terpk nak stay for long.. for a short vacation maybe.. 1st time datang sini ngn pakcik ku (dah arwah pun..al-fatihah) mase aku darjah 4..school holidays bersama2 cousin aku ngn akak2 ku, seronok betul kitorg mase tu, i really miss those days..sekarang sume dah besor, dah ade anak pun.. then 2nd time datang ngn housemate aku kt uni, die duk dekat2 sini, so die bawak 1 day trip to here.. pastu aku terpk gak.. bile lagi aku nak datang ke sini..ye lah, jauh tu, mana ade duit kan mase student dulu..

tup tup tup, mase final sem degree, ade this company buat college interview kt faculty aku.. aku macam excited la sbb 1st time nak gi interview..nak tgk ape die tanye n etc. supervisor aku pun beria suh aku pegi.. tup tup tup aku dapat.. ceh! mase tu aku giler excited.. then aku decided nak pegi, aku pun tak tahu kenapa aku boleh giler firm ngn decision aku.. maybe sebab aku dah malas nak pegi lelain interview kot =P..

all in all, aku rase tempat ni ok la.. shopping mall, ok ler tp mane leh lawan KL kan? in term of entertainment, aku tak kesah sgt pun.. in term of relationship, not that good la..sbb aku rase member2 aku adelah colleagues kt keje which are all bangsa lain yg a bit different in culture kan.. tp tak lah, good for me too.. tak banyak nak mengumpat..kakaka ..for sure yang aku suke kt sini, foods-murah dan sedap, takde toll macam KL tu, minyak sebulan pakai 1 tank jer, scenary on my way to work yg sangat peaceful.. menenangkan jiwa sebelum bump in with mini! ouuchhh!!

aduh..sure mini cari aku ni.. mane tak nampak lagi muka aku pepagi ni..

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1st entry

ermm.. my first entry.. i have 2 blogs before, but totally forgot its password and even the link sigh.. hopefully i can maintain this one.. this's where....one's heart will speak